Watching him play games gave me glitter

Yes, I got glitter while watching my husband play games. 
It sounds funny when I write it down. Playing games is one of his hobbies. Another one is building RC trucks. He can spend hours putting together tiny gears and parts until it becomes a complete truck. Then he'll clean every corner of it with so much attention to detail. To be fair, we actually share that habit haha!

And hobbies are funny too. Sometimes they stay for years. Sometimes they disappear for a while and come back one or two years later as if they never left. But while watching him play games recently, I found myself thinking about how much life has changed. Of course, most of those changes have been good. And for the ones that weren't, we took them as lessons. 

Before we were husband and wife, and before becoming parents, we were just a young boy and girl. Living life cluelessly. Going with the flow. Living with the "YOLO" mindset. Enjoying life while we could. 

To be honest, becoming an adult scared me. I wanted to stay a kid forever. Problem-free. Responsibility-free. Just enjoying whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. Looking back, that's actually a selfish thought. Because life isn't only about us. One day, we have to take over. The responsibilities become ours, and people would depend on us. And if we're lucky enough to grow old, growing up is something we simply cannot avoid. 

We move forward, chase our dreams, build a family, and experience life. And to do all of that, we have to keep growing, too. For a long time, I thought growing older meant leaving things behind. Leaving old hobbies, childish interests, and some parts of ourselves behind. But watching my husband play games reminded me that isn't true. 

Growing older doesn't mean giving up the things that once brought us joy. It means carrying some of them with us into the next chapter. 

The boy who enjoyed playing games is still there. He's just a husband now. A father too. And that's what gave me glitter. Because as his wife, I've had the privilege of watching that transformation happen. I've watched the young boy become a man. I've watched him become a husband. I've watched him become a father. Yet somehow, the boy never disappeared. He's still there. I see him whenever he gets excited about a hobby, talks about something he's interested in, or plays games.

And the little girl who was afraid of growing up is still here as well. She's just a mummy now. Yes, a mummy, a Mamasita haha! Still figuring things out. Still learning how to navigate adulthood one day at a time. 

That's another glitter of the day. The reminder that age is just a number. We were once five years old. We were once ten years old. We were once teenagers. We were once in our twenties. And now we're here. Trying our best in our thirties. 

We're all living this life for the first time. None of us really know what we're doing. We're simply learning as we go. That's why I think it's important to keep doing the things that make us happy. Playing games, watching anime, collecting action figures or hot wheels, building RC trucks, dreaming big, or whatever it may be. 

Because growing older is inevitable. 
Growing out of joy isn't. 

Lots of glitter,
mageta .✦ ݁˖